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Sunday, 13 May 2012

BAP: part 1

So... tomorrow I go to BAP. Otherwise known as Bishops Advisory Panel, previously known as Selection Conference/Abbum and probably other names too... This is the culmination of months of preparation, for me about 18 months, for some it is years. Despite much talk, meeting and advice from the DDO (Diocesan Director of Ordinands) I am not entirely sure what to expect. And so bearing in mind there will be many others going through this now and in the future I thought I would do a little feature, via the blog about going to BAP. Today are my initial thoughts and when I get back on Wednesday I will write post-experience, (or post-trauma!!) but I have also asked some lovely blog friends to write about their own experiences too and so for the first time will feature some guest-posts.

So.. my initial thoughts are veering from excitement to panic to last minute cramming to complete disdain and back to panic. The truth is I have done all the preparation I can, it's just  getting the info out of my head into coherent sentences which will be the problem! And of course getting across the info that I need them to know about me. I took advice from a friend who went  to BAP last year who told me to remember to take every opportunity to show them the breadth of my knowledge and experience. Which coming from a more evangelical church I need to do...

I have questioned myself over and over with potential questions they might ask me, all week sounding like I am talking to myself. My poor husband is sick of me telling him about the role of a Priest and I think my kids will be delighted to have the kitchen table back which all week has been covered in papers and books!!

Above all I believe this is of God, I believe he is calling me and I have been obedient to the call. We have taken every step prayerfully and asked him to shut the door if it is not right. So here I am, the door still open,  and of course that may change after these few days and if so I will trust that it is of God.

So with that I will sign off, to pack and check my train tickets and make sure the kids dinner is cooked for tomorrow and make sure the school runs are covered and make sure my husband knows where he has to be and when, and then theres the mountain of ironing.... (actually I might just leave that, after all my Mum will be here tomorrow and she might just do it for me...!)

See you on the other side!!

5 comments:

Perpetua said...

Prayers and all good wishes, Red. Be yourself - it'd yourself who will be doing the ministering if you are recommended.

Nancy Wallace said...

Only just read this post, so by now you will probably have arrived for your BAP. Praying for wisdom for the selectors and you and for you to feel relaxed enough to 'be yourself'.

Vic Van Den Bergh said...

And whilst you are (I hope) enjoying your BAP - be assured that prayers will have followed you.

Vic

Dean Aaron Roberts said...

Hey! Only just found this... wish I'd thought to have looked for posts before my panel (Though I'm CiW, so mine was slightly different!) Having said this, I've also written a post with a Welsh twist for those who are interested, which will form part of a series on this sort of stuff! My post is here for those interested: http://deanroberts.net/2014/07/24/so-youre-off-to-a-provincial-discernment-panel/

Red said...

Thanks Dean, will check it out! Im actually writing a book about the discernment process, would you be up for answering some questions?!
red :)