About Me

Monday, 30 April 2012

It's all connected...

'Lumbar Spine X-Ray L4 L5 S1' photo (c) 2010, Michael Dorausch - license: http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/2.0/It's funny how sometimes God uses every day things to teach us about him. Well, actually it's more than sometimes, it's most of the time really...
So, a few weeks ago I hurt my back when out running. Infuriating really as I had just got back into running after the winter and now have had to stop again. Now I really want to go and I can't. So I have been seeing a chiropractor who has been twisting and pummelling me in awful ways - if you have never had to visit a chiropractor you cannot begin to imagine the pain they can inflict with just one finger. Seriously I wonder if they are ever used to extract information from people.. Today she prodded my backside with her thumb and I could have thumped her... although it is actually helping. What has been really interesting is that although I feel the pain across my lower back, when she prods and pokes me, that isn't usually where I feel it during treatment. She can prod around the top of my arm or my shoulder and it is soooo painful and yet that's not where I feel it daily. What is that all about?! It reminded me of the scripture in 1 Corinthians 12 that says:

The human body has many parts, but the many parts make up one whole body. 
1 Cor 12:12

Everything is connected. Remember that old song 'the hip bone's connected to the thigh bone, the thigh bone's connected to the knee bone.....' and so on ad nauseum... The bible also says we are 'fearfully and wonderfully made' and how true that is. How wonderfully that everything works together in harmony (or should if you haven't damaged part of it). So when we do something to one part, it is felt all over. My legs have begun to ache because I am sitting and standing awkwardly, my neck aches, presumably for the same reason. The top of my arm was painful during treatment today... And Paul goes on:

18 But our bodies have many parts, and God has put each part just where he wants it. 19 How strange a body would be if it had only one part! 20 Yes, there are many parts, but only one body. 21 The eye can never say to the hand, “I don’t need you.” The head can’t say to the feet, “I don’t need you.”...

22 In fact, some parts of the body that seem weakest and least important are actually the most necessary. 23 And the parts we regard as less honorable are those we clothe with the greatest care. So we carefully protect those parts that should not be seen, 24 while the more honorable parts do not require this special care. So God has put the body together such that extra honor and care are given to those parts that have less dignity. 25 This makes for harmony among the members, so that all the members care for each other. 26 If one part suffers, all the parts suffer with it, and if one part is honored, all the parts are glad.

I know this is an image of the church and how it should work, and it's such a shame that so often it doesn't. Is there a church anywhere where the body does work well together? I mean, truly? God has put us together with love and wants us to work in harmony, and yet how hard it is! As Paul says above, 'if one part suffers, all the parts suffer with it'.  One could say that you can't please everyone all the time, and we know that Jesus certainly didn't please everyone, but I can't help thinking that's not really the right attitude for us to take. Surely there must be a way to live in harmony, especially within the church, as God intended.....

Sunday, 29 April 2012


So... I am half way through a Holy-Spirit bonanza weekend... or that is what I thought it would be, beforehand! A day on teaching on healing last Thursday, Hillsong Colour Conference on Friday and Saturday, a couple of days off (although obvs Sundays not really time off...) and then next Tuesday in London a conference with Randy Clark from Bethel Church.
So, it's fair to say I was expectant. Expectant for God to really move and speak to me, expectant to see the Holy Spirit moving in power, expectant to come away feeling totally hyped up and full of the Holy spirit.

So far the reality is different and I feel a little bit of a gentle tap on the knuckles from Him upstairs. Don't get me wrong, he has totaly been speaking to me, and at each of these places the atmosphere has been full of his amazing spirit. In fact on Thursday there was obvious manifestations of the spirit really moving in people. BUT for me, it has been a gentle whispering - the still small voice - saying - it's me! just focus on me. I am all that matters.
I am not someone who chases signs and wonders but I am so hungry to see and be part of Gods kingdom in all its fullness. I want to see the deaf hear, the blind see, the dead raised.,I want to see people transformed by the power of Gods love, it is true, but I also just want to know Jesus more. And I think over the last few days God has been reminding me just to focus first on his son and then the rest will follow. Its so easy to get carried away with fantastic teaching, or with a particular place, or a certain way of doing church, and then lose sight of what its all about. I'm not quite at the place of losing sight of Jesus, dont worry, but I am glad of the little reprimand and just to shift my focus slightly.

It's interesting just after these last few days to see how Christian teaching can vary so much. Thursday was very focussed on the manifestations of the Holy Spirit, healing and signs and wonders. 'Colour' was totally focussed on Jesus with some very strong Word-based teaching. I had almost forgotten how much I love Gods word. I have spent so much time recently reading and listening to other peoples teaching and opinions, I haven't had so much time to focus on the bible. How very foolish of me...

I Love God. I want to see so much more of his kingdom right now, I am so hungry for it, but even if I don't see it, I still love him. I am still desperate to know him more and  I am still passionate about others knowing Jesus. He has to be at the centre of everything I do, or there is just simply no point in doing it.

Sunday, 22 April 2012

If you don't ask, you don't get!

It's been ages since I really sat down with my blog and had a good read of those on my reading list, let alone writing anything myself. It's funny how sometimes things go in seasons. It's not like I haven't got anything to say, I have plenty, but whenever I sit down to blog, all enthusiasm fades. Maybe my blog season has come and gone, or maybe I am just prioritising differently. Anyway for now I am going to post a few bits this week and see where we go...

So... I have definitely been in a season of awakening recently. So hungry for more of God, more of his power, I am longing to see his kingdom in all its fullness, here, and right now.  I mentioned  a few weeks ago about going to a womens day which was about prophecy and so inspiring. As well as that I have been doing some teaching from Bethel church in the US which has really fired something in me to see more!

I have been eagerly seeking the gift of Prophecy for some time and after the day of teaching I felt more aware of this. 2 days after it, I was at the local station buying a coffee when I felt God giving me a word for the chap in the cafe. My inital reaction was one of fear and 'no, really? not now, not here!!' but I asked God to clarify and just thought what have I got to lose? Thankfully there was no one else there except me and the cafe guy, so I just shared with him what I felt. It was brill! and opened up a great conversation about God, as it turns out he was a Muslim.

The very next day, half asleep and looking out of the kitchen window I saw the oil delivery man arrive and the same thing happened. I felt a sort of quickening, almost like nerves, and a sense of what I was to share with him. So I went out to offer him a cuppa at  the same time asking him about what I felt God has said. He said 'yes, wow, thats weird...' He was blown away that I could know his situation, and again I was able to bless him and he said he was going to share with his wife what had happened!

I testified at a recent service, that if you don't ask, you won't get, and I believe God has so much more for all of us, but half the time we are not aware, or don't think ourselves worthy or think that things are for others. So come on, let's get asking!

Follow the way of love and eagerly desire gifts of the Spirit, especially prophecy.  1 Cor 14:1