I'm reposting this video which I saw over at The Pink Sheep blog, which really spoke to me today. I don't think it's any secret that I haven't quite got my head around what I personally feel about homosexuality in relation to my faith. I have been challenged whilst going through the discernment process for going into ministry in the CofE, and found it hard to come to a particular view point. Pre-Christianity I never had an issue with homosexuality, I've always been a very tolerant person, particularly for those who were persecuted - I always stood up for the underdog. So now, mixing with a lot of people who believe it is a sin has been hard. I struggle with scriptures on the subject because I can't believe that God would condemn anyone for their sexual orientation, but at the same time I accept the bible as Gods word. In fact the bible says he loves us all, as we are and it is not my place to tell somone they are commiting a sin - take the plank out of your own eye before talking about one in your brothers... I am not perfect or a saint and I never want to be in a position of condemning someone for their actions. However I can't quite get to a stand point I feel comfortable with. I should just say this is my personal view. I have quite strong views on lots of things but they are mine, no one elses and whatever I believe is for me and no one else, so in this post I am not suggesting that any particular view is right or wrong. This is a not a forum for a debate on whether homosexuality is a sin. I am just laying down where I am.
So this morning I saw this clip on the Pink Sheeps page. I cried my way through most of it. Please watch it, it is 12 minutes long, but a very moving account by a very brave man, and worth watching. I was sickened by the fact that young people, teenagers, felt that they had no option but to commit suicide after bullying about their sexual orientation. I am staggered that in this day and age in a western country, this could still happen. I don't care what anyone thinks is right or wrong, it is never right to condemn someone or bully them or put someone down for their sexuality. And I know that I may be put in a position if I get into ministry where I will be expected to say what I think. That is my struggle, and I resent that I am being put in that position, and if it jeopardises my journey, so be it. But I cannot condemn someone for their sexuality. (I cannot condone it or put it on a par with heterosexuality (my view only)), but I will not condemn it either. I just cannot. We take our words so lightly sometimes but even the bible says the power of life and death is in the tongue. So yes, I may be sitting on the fence and I know that I may get splinters in my bum because of it. I suspect I will come up against people disagreeing with me, particularly at church, and I won't get the support of the other side as I can't condone it either. But this video made me realise this morning that we should guard our words carefully. I cannot believe that it was Gods will for any of those youngsters to die at their own hands. I may be struggling to come to a viewpoint, but speaking out and into peoples lives like that, is just not acceptable, on any level. How is that spreading a message of love?
I hope you will all read this in the spirit of love in which it is written, no matter which viewpoint you are coming from.