People said to me that God won't just suddenly make you change what you are doing, there will be a progression and several people actually said: what usually happens is you find your time is gradually taken up with the new stuff and there won't be time for the old and then you have to make a decision. Well that has happened. I got home tonight, after a church based meeting (which I wanted to go to don't get me wrong) and realised that by Thursday I will have been out at church based 'entertainment' 5 nights on the trot. My husband then told me he was playing in the band on Sunday and was off to rehearsal on Tuesday night. so there the line was drawn! I don't like the kids having babysitters too often and its not fair on them, so something had to give.
I have been really careful about not taking on too much as we are both so keen we would sign up to something every night of the week if we could! but the last few weeks have been a bit odd for various reasons. Thing is, I want to do all the church stuff. I don't resent it, I want to be involved, be part of it, pray with others and so on, but it really just can't fit with my business and my family. just wont, and doesn't work. unfortunately barring a small miracle (or a bigger one) I am a bit stuck in the work area for the next 8 months, so I guess I just have to hang in there with a whole heap more prayer.